<bgsound> src="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3i7Sznuu-Ww" loop="infinite"</bgsound> FEATHERS OF LOVE: 2010

Friday, December 31, 2010

One of my earlier reading(just for introduction)- facial readings

By now i've read about 75%. if i complete my reading, u'll never be able to lie to me.
you might be wondering wat i ment by reading ..

i'm trying to find out wats wrong with u. u may ask,"wats wrong with me?"

but tat's wat i'm trying to find out. till now i have't been  able to find wats wrong with u.tats odd i usually find something wrong with every girl i see. the problem is there's no problem in u,tats disturbing for me....

It's like u r an ideal girl wat i've been looking for, u r chivalrous, u r single. tat won't go together. there't many girls who r chivalrous and single, u know. The last girl who was chivalrous i met, had a boyfriend.Most of the girls i met who i think was chivalrous has boyfriend. at first i taut u had a boyfriend too. when i found out tat u were single, how can tat be, it doesn't go together. Then i figured you'd have ideals. which i confirmed by the the way..

Then i noticed something,tat u were chivalrous to mask something in u r life, the pain,loneliness in u r life . Then wat could be in u r life which u r finding an emptiness to fill. Then i remembered about u r accident, u promised u r mother something right. frm tat moment u r mother expects u to keep u r promise right, tat makes u left out..

the reason i'm telling u all this is tat frm the day i talked to u for the first time, till now, i never met anybody who i can read this good. like u r an open book/a news paper for me, every time u come in frount of me, i can even see wat u r not telling, then wat u r telling out loud...

Whats wrong with u , u tell me yourself, wats wrong with u, so tat i stop figuring u out and try move on to find my dream girl.wat is tat in u tat i don't like. y don't u look flawed to my eyes.i can even find flaws even in supermodels, belive me.But u...

 i still remember the first time i talked to u. it was in the office, u were waiting outside of the princi's
office when i came to get admitted tat day and i asked u something..

the day when we were waiting in the park , when u took my phone and was checking my msg, i saw u r face. how u looked, when u saw the wallpaper in my phone and asked me who she was i read u r face. when u looked me in the eye tat day,i saw something tat day..

when u saw tat i had given my book to u r friend tat day, i read something tat day. U asked me to get it for u.
 i found jealousy in tat voice tat day.But i had to make sure tat u were different frm others and i'm not mistaken for u.then i realized....u were special.. And tat made me curious.

p.s:ambiguous comments r not allowed. u've to be clear.^_^

Friday, July 16, 2010


it was my girlfriend's birth day and i haven't got a present, and I'm clueless about
what to give her. I asked a friend ,he probably being busy took out
some time for me, and we went on a rampage on the the stores but to no vain. Disappointed he went home suggesting stores near my home.
By now i had a general idea of a present, but still clueless of what to give. the next day ,on Saturday i went to a hallmark store and picked up a greeting card after through examination of almost all the cards in the rack and it's still not enough. Since i had some more money to spare, i thought of getting her something else, through some ceramic dolls got my attention, i was having second thoughts, since it was a collection, and i usually go for a single peice of rare item. Then i considered for the mugs with good quotes on it, and one perticular mug got my attention, and it's quotes was so formed so was in a barrier line between love and friendship,(Since i was not in commitment with her yet) and the pictures on it was good.
I was looking for a perfect birthday gift ,how could i settle for just a mug. so i
thought of keeping my options open as always and asked the shopkeeper whether the store was open on tomorrow, as tomorrow was Sunday, the shopkeeper clearly stated that the store will be closed all day since it is Sunday. I didn't have time to think since it was the closing time of the shop and the shopkeeper was packing up to leave. I quickly made a discussion to buy it thinking that I'll get something else in addition,i asked for a gift wrap of the mug and the store closed as soon as i left
I then went home and calculated my expenditure for the gift and the designated amount set aside for it. Which then i realized that i used up almost all of my money which i set aside for the gift, for the mug and greeting card and had none left.
That night i had little sleep thinking what she might say, when she sees the mug,
the taught of her expression itself made me regret my decision, i was so sad
that i even considered borrowing money from my friend to get another suitable gift.
well common what would u do to get that perfect gift for your perfect girl
to make her birthday perfect.well it's Just like they say, when u r in love everything
around u seems so imperfect.
That night went as, and the next day when i was filling names of the sender part
on the gift card and writing quotes on the greeting card, i realized something, which i had forgotten for a longtime that," It's not what you give,it's the taught which counts",
And if she understands that she with no doubt love it.

Sunday, February 7, 2010


As the saying goes,"Anyone can catch your eye, but it takes someone special to catch your heart".
It means, it's not how she looks like, it's how she makes you feel. when she walks, talks, laughs, her personality is in wat a person should fall in love with not her facial looks,or body
Those who goes for a facial looks,and body structure should go for a whore or a
prostitute not a lover.
love is also beauty. It is beautiful. Because, what makes someone beautiful is how they act and what they do. A person who loves, is beautiful.
A lover looks for a compatible heart, which makes him feel happy at the sight of her
presence,makes you feels how she does in her talk, makes her every move laughable like a child
and her presence near him comforts him like there is nothing worth living without his
counterpart, and makes every second wanting to last a lifetime.
As one of my friend says, Love is a mental illness, and he even justifies it by giving a definition of mental illness and telling tat love fits it!! this is wat the definition of love that he gives,
" n. Any of various conditions characterized by impairment of an individual’s normal cognitive, emotional, or behavioral functioning, and caused by social, psychological, biochemical, genetic, or other factors."
Well i agreed with him except for the genetic factor, then he asked whether i ever been to Alabama, and this is what he says, "In Alabama? You have to ask a guy, and he’ll ask his uncle-brother, or maybe his mother-sister. Between the three of them, they might tell you what they think". Well i never tried it till now, but the point is, Is love really a mental illness..??, Well this guy believed so. Lets say he's an atheist of Love.
Since i'm not one of those guys i describe my love as,
"she's the personification of beauty.
her expressions, conveys a sign of ladyness.
her beauty is just a outward picture of her sensuality.
the way she stands, the smile,her expression, all from heaven.
a perfect women, or is it an angel from heaven.!
her long hair, her cloths, just radiating white skin, is unlike
any women i've seen on earth. just looking at her perfect body gives me shivers,.
even the moon might get jealous, if she comes out on a moony day.."
Even as it may look like i'm describing the outer beauty, these words came from my heart, and should or will come to the heart of those who are in love.
Love is where you care about someone. You don’t hurt them, or you try your hardest not to. You try to be there for them when they need you. You want what’s best for them and feel happy for them when they do well. you want to make them feel good and you feel sad when they are sad, and when they feel bad, you feel bad for them too, and try to help. They keep you company when you need company. They put you first, above all other priorities. The person they love is top priority. even before themselves.
Like Enrique's Song in Insomniac, Communication is sometimes a key to Love, because without one talking and understanding the other and the other understanding them, there can be a barrier. But once that barrier is broken, people can begin to understand and trust each other and can bond. Also with communication, if there are problems that bother either person, the two can discuss the problems through talking, without fear of saying what they want to say. They don’t need to fear that their views will be put down, because they know that how they feel and what they believe will be respected and seen as important.
In any form of real love, the person knows that they can depend on the person and that they can trust them. They give nice compliments and make you feel special. They built your self esteem. Just like a friend.
There are also a few types of love. There is a type of love for friendship, family, aquaintences and sexual- which isn’t always associated with love. It alone can’t be a form of love, but only possibly a form of love if everything I’ve said above occurs. Otherwise it’s not real and is a selfish or blind kind. There is also the type of love you can feel for something which does not live, like objects. But I don’t think materialistic things are really too important. Perhaps it is a type of love, or only a like. think love is a need. In one form or another . It helps a person grow as a person.
And I’ve learnt these things from the people I’ve met or known. like parents, my girlfriend, my friends. even ex girlfriends, because they’ve taught me what love is not.
That my friend is a essence of a true love in a nutshell.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010


name's niyan. today's topic is: feeling_hurt

It hurt to feel, but hurt is also a feel. but nothing hurts like a friend ignoring u. u'll only know when u feel it. it hurts more if tat friend is u r love. i use the term love for a lover.... pls don't misunderstand if i say "u r love deeply loves u"... it only means tat u r lover lover deeply loves u. Hurt is directly proportional to the feeling/caring for tat person. don't belive try it.
It hurts more if a best friend ignores u more than a unknown person or the person u just meet ignores u. it hurts u more if u r love ignores u than u r best friend ignores u... try it it's all frm my soul, every word of it is true....
Other forms of hurts. joulasy hurt is another form of hurt the previous one was ignoring hurt. the feel tat get if u r best friend is in favour of other is the jelousy hurt. this hurt is commonly seen in love. this hurt mostly result is voilence. be careful to watch out for this kind of feeling....
Another form of hurt is Betrail form of hurt . this will also end in voilence depending on the intensity of the feel. for example if a friend betray u, what will u do, and if u r love betrays u, wat will u do... the mear sentence of betrail gives u hurt and feeling of anger and fear. Here betrail hurt is directly proportional to the trust.
Some times it does't hurt at all if u r beaten up tied to a poal. But it hurts if u r love, friend or one who u care for is done the same. this senario is used in most films, u've seen it also. this hurt is called the physical-mental hurt of the loved ones. I don't think i need to explain this form of hurt at all... if u want more explanation just try a movie which involves drama.
There's another form of hurt, which is mostly mistaken with good feeling,... the hurt of sacrifice... it hurts a lot to let go of something u love to someone who wants it more than u. U may call me self centered or anything u like , but it really hurt to sacrifice something u love for someone else.... As i said earlier it's commonly mistaken as pleasure /good feeling of seeing others happy.....this hurt is mostly followed with jelousy,insecurity,and sometimes hatered.

Have i mentioned that feeling don't come alone, they come in heard.... Don't belive me, just try to classify pure happiness. Happiness always comes with satisfaction( satisfastion is also a feeling). sadness mostly comes with anger, dissatisfaction, mostly frusturation and anger. similarly all not almost, all emotions/ feeling come in heard never alone....
So when u say u r totally happy, u really not happy, u r satisfied an feel good./.

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